I didn't post yesterday out of sheer pissed-offness over my weigh in - 274.5, thinking that it was just a fluke, and that everything would be better today. I've done everything right - exercised every day, sometimes twice a day. Eliminated carbs almost entirely, watched my portion control for the most part, definitely kept it under 1600 calories a day. I should be making regular progress, right?
Wrong, wrong, EFFING WRONG. I get on the scale today - 277. WHAT?????? How is that possible? How can I possibly be back up to 277? I know that daily fluctuations are common, which is why the "experts" say not to weigh every day. I get that, really. But 6 damn pounds? Where's the justice in that? How can I stay motivated with these kinds of results? I guess by remembering that if I don't keep at it, I'll be dead.
It's just that, while the stick is certainly a motivator, we all like the carrot: cute clothes, self-confidence, sense of accomplishment. I want my carrot, damn it all.
Breakfast - 1/4 C cashews
Lunch - 8 oz. italian beef and 1/4 C hot peppers (no bun)
Dinner - 8 oz. "Mushroom Fish" (whitefish in sour cream sauce)
Like 6 gallons of water
Exercise - AM: 35 minutes of Bollywood (loving the new song from Main Hoon Na, "Tumse Milke Dil Ka Jo Haal" - those hand motions that Amrita Rao is doing are nutty. I'm not sure how I'm ever going to learn them; but, it's such a fun work out, and of course yummy Shah Rukh Khan is as sexy as ever, which makes it all that much more fun to work out to the YouTube video!)
PM: another 45 minutes of Bollywood, because I was so frustrated over the scale. Better that than eat a pint of ice cream, I suppose.
Please, Lord, give me the strength to keep going one more day.
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