FFFFF.........K!!!!!!!!!! It's very tempting at this point to just stop eating altogether. I'm just pissed off enough to have the willpower. Oh how I want to beat this plateau into submission. Every toxic internal impulse, every negative bit of self-talk I've accumulated over the years tells me to just skip every meal for the next three days "just to see if it makes a difference." But, of course, that's not sustainable – with the willpower or with my health. That inner voice is already grinding pine nuts for the pesto I'm going to pour over my entitlement bowl of pasta, grinning and rubbing her hands together. So, I am going to follow the advice that I recently gave a friend:
I say to you, my inner voice, that you are full of SHIT, and I am not listening to you. You are how I got here in the first place, so you can just shut the hell up. I am getting up tomorrow and EATING before I leave for school. So KISS MY ASS, you self-destructive bitch. I'M in charge today.
Breakfast - almonds and coffee
Lunch - Atkins bar
Snack - almonds
Dinner - bacon-wrapped shrimp and apple slices
Exercise - walking all over school for 8 hours, trying to get my Daily 5 ducks in a row.
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